New Year, New Intentions

by Lorree | Jan 8, 2022 | 0 comments

It is 8 days into 2022 and I have had the good fortune of being away up north at a chalet for a week spending quality time with my husband and nature.

I love going away at this time of year, it’s a time of reflection of the past and contemplation of what is to come. It’s a time to just be, it is the in-between times and I love the space between the two.

What I have realized is being isolated from people, and places for the past 22 months was exactly what I needed. I’m not saying I was never around others because I was but I chose carefully who I spent my time with and didn’t feel I ‘had to’ see others.

It simplified my decision-making and made the times I did spend with people more meaningful. Whenever I tried to plan something it rarely panned out, so I surrendered to the belief that I would be directed towards where I’m meant to be.

I have learned to trust divine timing and divine intervention more deeply. Let’s face it, life is not certain except that it’s going to change.

I did feel some guilt off and on that, I’d gotten exactly what I needed while so many others are suffering. Then I saw my pattern, I often felt this way in my past. I held myself back and stayed small so as to not offend or cause others to feel bad.

I am now aware this is a victim pattern from my past, so instead, I choose differently this year. I am in my power, coming from my heart, not dimming for anyone because that helps no one.

I choose to live life fully and follow the divine guidance given to me. How can I help anyone else if I don’t help myself first?

What I can also do is have compassion and belief in others, model what it’s like to be vulnerable, heal, grow, fall down and get back up again, laugh and cry and embrace this Soul Adventure we call life.

I have had more magical, joyful moments since March 2020 than I’ve had ever in my life. Nature Love

To be able to be completely present in the moments of life, without carrying guilt or shame but to live fully, connect to others who I can be myself around, to marvel at the wonders of nature, exploring, communicating, and embodying the wisdom all around me.

That’s the good news and like everything, there is always another side.

It’s also been very depressing, it’s not hard to allow fear to take you over, we are having it drilled into our heads everywhere we go and most of what we consume digitally.

It’s damaging to our nervous systems when our thoughts are on a consistent loop of fight/flight or freeze. What’s next, what do we do, how to pivot, how can we prepare to be healthy, safe, and secure?

The conclusion I have come to is reality is shifting and changing and it’s never going to be the same.

So in a world that I cannot control, I choose to control how I respond to it and I’ve found out what works for me.

I am shifting from being an unconscious creator of my reality to a conscious creator of my life.

We know quantum physics proves we create our reality through our consciousness, so if we are unconsciously being given subliminal fear messaging we will create more of that.

When we are living in the moment, repeating positive affirmations to ourselves, and consciously observing our thoughts, feelings, and behaviours and what is coming into our awareness we can consciously choose what we want to focus on and say No to the fear.

The thing is, if you have past fear patterning, which most of us do, we have to experience it fully before we can let it go. We have to feel it to heal it and that’s what’s been coming up for me, lots of feelings and emotions.

I honour myself and feel them, I allow them to move through me and out of my body. Then I feel better, lighter, I have more energy and hope.

I take note of what those triggers are that set me off, what are my core negative beliefs I have that drove the trigger, and what is the worst-case scenario in whatever is causing the fear in the first place?

Like many, this whole pandemic situation has caused me to re-evaluate everything in my life. What’s most important? What isn’t? What do I want to create?

To affirm: I am unapologetically standing in my truth, with my heart open and showing up for myself first, then I can help lift others up. My focus is on my health and well-being, this is most important to me because my health is my wealth.

This journey is an individual one and a collective, I realized as much as I want to, I can’t save anyone, we have to want to save ourselves and then take the steps to do so.

We are born with free will to choose, even though we seem to be losing those rights no one can tell me how I respond to life. This is how I stay in my personal power rather than giving it away to someone else who tells me what to think and feel and says they know what is best for me.

My intention is to live by my values, treat myself as the sacred being I am, and do the same to others. I will not be divided, I will not hate. I will open my heart and love with healthy boundaries and integrity in my intentions.

I wish you a Happy New Year, make your intentions your own, or someone else will do it for you.

Besides impacting the lives of others to ‘be real and love life’ the most powerful thing about the work I get to do is the reflections of the teachings that come back to me. I always receive some type of wisdom, healing or blessing from the experience, whether it’s a private, group session or a speaking event.

Whatever the message is that I’ve conveyed I am somehow reminded of how it applies to me as well and it guides me towards the next stage of my growth.

Being aware of the subtle messages that are being sent to guide us forward is very empowering.

Last weekend at the Soul Full Day conference, I guided a group of 70 women through a visualization meditation to identify and let go of a fear story holding them back from what they truly wanted for their life, freedom to live their love story.

It was remarkable to witness them releasing the fear and claiming their love stories, seeing and feeling themselves living in the higher potential of their dreams.

This week I’ve been deeply reminded of the fear story that I’ve been carrying, ‘not being well enough to live a fulfilling life because my digestive health is failing’.

This is the same story my grandmother carried, and she died in fear with this story in her which was unconsciously passed on to me, and I accepted it.

For 8 years now I’ve been having various challenges with my digestive health. I’ve seen many different professionals and tried many different remedies and lifestyle changes. Some have worked and some haven’t. Over time things seemed to have mostly settled, then just a month ago the issues flared up again in a bigger way.

This brought up the old fear story for me as I prepare for a trip of a lifetime. I’m going to Egypt on a sacred pilgrimage to the visit the lands and ancient sites with 13 other women. This will be my first trip overseas and I’ve always been fascinated with Egyptian history, never thinking I would get the opportunity to visit until it showed up to me. I was very drawn to go, and decided I was going, even though it felt way outside my ability to be able to take such a trip.

Worries and a wide range of emotions have been coming up for me since these flare ups have been happening. My mind races and makes up stories based in old fears.

What if I am not well enough to fully experience this trip? What if I am stuck in my room and miss the tours, or what if I am not able to digest the food there? All that disappointment and money spent if I might not be able to full experience it.

These stories are very similar to what my grandmother used to tell herself. She was afraid to go far from home, let alone on a plane to another country. Everything centred around her digestive limitations and she was petrified of having an ‘accident’ while out in public. These fear stories debilitated her and she became a hermit and was very lonely in her later years.

I will never forget seeing her in the final days of her life living in fear. I visited her almost every day and seeing her like that was very sad because there wasn’t much I could do other than comfort and reassure her that she would be ok.

What it did do was motivate me to face my own fears and not go down the same path as she did. In this regard, she was a great teacher to me and not long after she transitioned I was divinely guided to take the Radical Forgiveness Master Coach 10 day training in Atlanta.

It was a huge step for me, and again way outside my comfort zone, but in the end it was one of the best things I could have done for myself because it set me on the trajectory of facing my fears, and the journey of living my love story.

I am eternally grateful to be on this path of self-forgiveness and self-acceptance just as I am, and in time I have learned to love myself. I’m still on this healing journey however this year I’ve had some major shifts in this area of my life and feel truly worthy and deserving of this love for myself because I have freedom from the fears.

This is where the synchronicity comes in again.

It just so happens that this Friday, the day I fly to Egypt, is the 9 year anniversary of my grandmother’s passing, and it’s a full moon! You just can’t make these things up. I didn’t realize the mysterious alignment of these dates until just a few weeks ago.

In numerology the number 9 represents endings and completions and I have a strong intuitive feeling that this trip is going to be transformational for me as a new beginning.

The other day when I was dancing my grandmother came to my mind, she was dancing with me, and I know she is leaving me these breadcrumb signs to follow to complete this stage of my journey. I made a promise to her that I was going to end the cycle of fear she carried and commit myself to healing into wholeness.

I have no doubt that this is all happening for me, rather than to me. And unlike my grandmother, I will face my fears and take this trip and I will trust in the divine unfoldment of it all.

I am reminded that everything is always working out for me, even if it doesn’t seem that way and she is cheering me on all along the way.

These are the same phrases I spoke to the women when I was on stage just a few days ago and they echo loudly in my mind as the beautiful blessings of having the freedom to live my love story.

If you would like to experience the guided visualization for yourself listen to the audio recording so you too can be free from your fear story and claim your love story.

In my next blog I will share about my travel adventures so stay tuned, and if you would like to be notified when I share it you can join my email Love Letter list at the bottom of this page.

Until next time… thank you for being here.

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