These Times call for Radical Responsibility

by | Jun 29, 2022 | 0 comments

I am here to live a radically empowering life in these times of extreme change.

It took me a long time to own this statement. This is my truth and I connected to it by listening to my soul’s wisdom.

I look at life as a series of Soul Adventures. Let me explain what I mean based on what I’ve learned from listening to shamans, teachers and mentors ideas, reading books and then discerning it for myself.  Through contemplation and reflection on my life and the world I learned this theory.

For the record, I am always open to new innerstandings, because no one really knows difinitively  for sure why we are here. It’s a feeling and. a calling and it’s up to each of our interpretation, which collectively creates our reality into the physical.

As souls, who are all unique, individual expressions of God/Source, we enter this world with an intention to experience emotions, create our life through our free will and evolve. We begin with a pure innocent heart full of love, feeling all our feelings fully and then we forget where we came from and slip into the ways of being and thinking based on our environment.

We take our purposeful journey to experience the contrasts of the truth of who we are and as we grow we evolve, but first we are oppressed in some way into victimhood. This is our Soul’s intention, to experience hardship and come out of it better, wiser, more loving than we were.

Our soul’s quest is always to gain the wisdom it came here for and heal back into wholness. We are here to re-member our innocence we lost along the way, and call back and integrate the parts that we would look at as negative, these are our fragmented soul parts.

One of the biggest Soul Adventures we are moving through and is coming up for so many of us are feelings of unworthiness. These deeply imbedded false beliefs keep us staying small so we feel safe and lead to lack and scarcity thinking, because underneath it all, this is what this world has been built upon.

These falsehoods feel so real to us in this physical reality, and show up as unhealed trauma from childhood. We all have something, some more than others.

I am seeing a lot of people feeling the squeeze if they haven’t been doing some type of inner healing. As well many are unable to keep up with all of what is coming to light, personally and in the world with all the terrible things happening being broadcasted 24/7, it keeps us in fear if we focus on it.

Besides the state of the world at large being out of balance, there is a surge of health issues and developed sensitivites, showing us how we are out of balance with our true selves, physically, mentally, emotionally, and even spiritually.  

These experiences are what can serve as catalysts to pay attention and focus on what is truly important to us. Our health is our wealth and if you haven’t recognized it yet, we are living in a codependent society.

Most of us are dependent on each other and the systems we operate within which are becoming more controlling and often unhealthy.

We are in a healing crisis and it’s imperative we pay attention to how we are helping or contributing to the problems we are faced with today.

Not one of us can save the world, and no one is going to save us, but we can be kind and caring to each other rather than judge people for where they are in their evolution and experiences. No one needs rescuing, but they do need empowering to do things for themselves with our support if needed.

We can help others more by putting our selves first so we can be our best selves and support those who are not able to at this time.

The Soul Adventure reading in the image above confirms what I believe we all need to heal.

I am Truth. I am in touch with the true nature of my soul and the world around me.

Emotional Me – I feel my feelings and they move through my body and release. (the wounded parts)

Therefore I am Setting Boundaries which is healing for me to evolve.

I don’t believe it’s going to get better for anyone until they face their ‘demons’ their dark side, the unhealed, self-loathing emotions, which they may not even be aware of.

Collectively it’s been coming to the surface for a long while now with the oppression of groups of people just for being different, looking or sounding different, different cultures, making different health choices that some don’t agree with or simply having more or less things or money as a measure of success and class.

We are more connected than we realize, and what happens to one happens to all energetically. There’s been a supression of this truth and it’s coming to light now.

We get no where when we point fingers and blame. The truth doesn’t mind questions amd it’s up to us to ask them, or we are being complaicent.

As the cliche saying goes, life is what we make of it, and yet we are often not taking responsibilty for ourselves but instead focusing on what others are doing and being offended and projecting our pain and unhealed trauma on to those with opposing views.

I’ve done this in my past too and I’m speaking to those who are ready to do something radically different, take responsibility for our own triggers.

Unfortunately we usually don’t take action until we are personally affected however these wounds of unworthiness run far and deep and I believe most of us have some sort of unworthiness unless they have done the inner work around it.

We can stop the suffering by not feeding into the fear when we are triggered and instead compassionately and curiously inquire into our upset and when we are ready comteplate other perspectives that empower us.

It’s time to heal the generational imprints we have been passing down to one another for centuries.

When I started living a radical life it felt very uncomfortable. One by one I question my beliefs and chose to look at everything through two lenses.

My human ego lens that has many emotional triggers and defaults to I’m a ‘victim of circumstance’ and have no power to change it.

Then I look through my highest self-loving lens that I’m a divine being of God/Source always supported with the power within me to change my life and create it the way I want it to be. That my triggers are a reflection of what I need to heal within myself.

I keep healing what comes up by looking through both lenses. I have many ebbs and flows and I continue asking lots of questions with compassionate curiosity.

I went from feeling

…external pressure to feeling inner purpose.

…stress and burnout to feeling peace and happiness.

…pain and hopelessness to feeling love and connectedness with others, myself, nature and Spirit.

…as if it was me against the world to feeling fully supported and having everything I need to feel fulfilled.

…like I wasn’t enough to feeling more than enough and accepting of my humanness while connected to my divine magic within me.

It’s all an inside job, and that’s what I’m here for, to share and facilitate what I have learned so others can heal and re-member their innate power that they create their life and can heal their hearts.

If your emotions keep coming up it may be time to face some truths.

If you feel a calling to do this inner work and take a big step towards healing into wholeness, consider joining my online Radical Self-Forgivness The Direct Path to True Self-Acceptance Book Study Coaching Group starting at the end of July 2022.

Go here to my Group Coaching Page to learn more.

Besides impacting the lives of others to ‘be real and love life’ the most powerful thing about the work I get to do is the reflections of the teachings that come back to me. I always receive some type of wisdom, healing or blessing from the experience, whether it’s a private, group session or a speaking event.

Whatever the message is that I’ve conveyed I am somehow reminded of how it applies to me as well and it guides me towards the next stage of my growth.

Being aware of the subtle messages that are being sent to guide us forward is very empowering.

Last weekend at the Soul Full Day conference, I guided a group of 70 women through a visualization meditation to identify and let go of a fear story holding them back from what they truly wanted for their life, freedom to live their love story.

It was remarkable to witness them releasing the fear and claiming their love stories, seeing and feeling themselves living in the higher potential of their dreams.

This week I’ve been deeply reminded of the fear story that I’ve been carrying, ‘not being well enough to live a fulfilling life because my digestive health is failing’.

This is the same story my grandmother carried, and she died in fear with this story in her which was unconsciously passed on to me, and I accepted it.

For 8 years now I’ve been having various challenges with my digestive health. I’ve seen many different professionals and tried many different remedies and lifestyle changes. Some have worked and some haven’t. Over time things seemed to have mostly settled, then just a month ago the issues flared up again in a bigger way.

This brought up the old fear story for me as I prepare for a trip of a lifetime. I’m going to Egypt on a sacred pilgrimage to the visit the lands and ancient sites with 13 other women. This will be my first trip overseas and I’ve always been fascinated with Egyptian history, never thinking I would get the opportunity to visit until it showed up to me. I was very drawn to go, and decided I was going, even though it felt way outside my ability to be able to take such a trip.

Worries and a wide range of emotions have been coming up for me since these flare ups have been happening. My mind races and makes up stories based in old fears.

What if I am not well enough to fully experience this trip? What if I am stuck in my room and miss the tours, or what if I am not able to digest the food there? All that disappointment and money spent if I might not be able to full experience it.

These stories are very similar to what my grandmother used to tell herself. She was afraid to go far from home, let alone on a plane to another country. Everything centred around her digestive limitations and she was petrified of having an ‘accident’ while out in public. These fear stories debilitated her and she became a hermit and was very lonely in her later years.

I will never forget seeing her in the final days of her life living in fear. I visited her almost every day and seeing her like that was very sad because there wasn’t much I could do other than comfort and reassure her that she would be ok.

What it did do was motivate me to face my own fears and not go down the same path as she did. In this regard, she was a great teacher to me and not long after she transitioned I was divinely guided to take the Radical Forgiveness Master Coach 10 day training in Atlanta.

It was a huge step for me, and again way outside my comfort zone, but in the end it was one of the best things I could have done for myself because it set me on the trajectory of facing my fears, and the journey of living my love story.

I am eternally grateful to be on this path of self-forgiveness and self-acceptance just as I am, and in time I have learned to love myself. I’m still on this healing journey however this year I’ve had some major shifts in this area of my life and feel truly worthy and deserving of this love for myself because I have freedom from the fears.

Numerology 9

This is where the synchronicity comes in again.

It just so happens that this Friday, the day I fly to Egypt, is the 9 year anniversary of my grandmother’s passing, and it’s a full moon!  You just can’t make these things up. I didn’t realize the mysterious alignment of these dates until just a few weeks ago.

In numerology the number 9 represents endings and completions and I have a strong intuitive feeling that this trip is going to be transformational for me as a new beginning.

The other day when I was dancing my grandmother came to my mind, she was dancing with me, and I know she is leaving me these breadcrumb signs to follow to complete this stage of my journey. I made a promise to her that I was going to end the cycle of fear she carried and commit myself to healing into wholeness.

I have no doubt that this is all happening for me, rather than to me.  And unlike my grandmother, I will face my fears and take this trip and I will trust in the divine unfoldment of it all.

I am reminded that everything is always working out for me, even if it doesn’t seem that way and she is cheering me on all along the way.

These are the same phrases I spoke to the women when I was on stage just a few days ago and they echo loudly in my mind as the beautiful blessings of having the freedom to live my love story.

If you would like to experience the guided visualization for yourself listen to the audio recording so you too can be free from your fear story and claim your love story.

In my next blog I will share about my travel adventures so stay tuned, and if you would like to be notified when I share it you can join my email Love Letter list at the bottom of this page.

Until next time… thank you for being here.

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