Are You Ignoring the Knocks on the Door?

by Lorree | Oct 10, 2020 | 0 comments

This week is about World Mental Health awareness and it could be for a whole month and still not get enough attention or funding in my opinion. This year has been especially difficult for our mental health in general.

Our mental health is just as important as our physical and emotional health and imo it comes first because our thoughts become things. (Potential transforms into form)

Recycling our past pain and limiting beliefs in our mind creates a low vibration in our bodies which creates aches and pains, illness and eventually disease.

Our bodies talk to us all the time and how often do we not listen to them?

For me it was a lot, I would think of my aches and pains as annoying, they irritated me and I eventually resented my body and myself for not taking good care of it.

What I was putting in to my body with the mental thought patterns over and over again was the unhealthy thoughts of I’m not enough, I’m too much, I’m afraid to show up as me because then they will reject me, etc.

Our thoughts send a signal to the feelings part of our brain which creates emotions and if we don’t allow ourselves to make friends with our emotions they take over and affect our mental health in often debilitating ways.

Think about it this way, if someone is knocking on your door with a very important message for you that needs your focused attention to heal and grow and you ignore the persistent knocking, or you open the door and shut it just as fast or even board up your door so they can never get in what do you think will happen?

You miss the message in your mess and the knocks will get louder and louder until you can no longer ignore them.

I used to process my emotions in my head, it did not feel safe to do it any other way as I believed it when I was told I was ‘too sensitive’ or I was a ‘cry baby’.

I had a lock and key on my emotions and even though I did my best to keep a lid on them and stay in control they would come up and out at the most inopportune times.

I would end up hurting someone I loved because I reacted and got angry, jealous, resentful or I would blame others.

Then upon reflection I would beat myself up for losing control and felt guilty and ashamed of myself and kept thinking there’s something wrong with me.

Do you see the cycle of mental abuse I put myself through because I wasn’t listening to my body?

About 10 years ago I had a few serious life events happen over a short period of time that woke me up out of my victim story of poor me, nobody loves the real me cause I’m too afraid to show up as her.

I started to inquire with myself and listen to my body.

I began to pay attention to my patterns of thoughts and feelings and gently began to heal and change my thought process.

I had to let go of striving for perfection and control of life outside of me. I embraced being perfectly imperfect.

I had to have a ton of compassion for myself and others because we all have these types of programs that control our lives if we let them.

Forgiving myself was the most powerful and healthy action I took.

It meant I had to be vulnerable, make friends with my hidden dark parts and only then could I be real.

I’m not going to lie, it was very uncomfortable at times and it gets messy and painful when you open up your Pandora’s box of trapped emotions.

The bright side is it does heal you and it gets easier!

The lightness and gratitude I feel when I have released another limiting belief about myself or even about the world is all worth it.

I’m at peace with so much now and the chaos I’m witnessing in the world is not bringing me down. I have the utmost compassion for all and wherever they are in their journey.

I still feel the emotions and the pain when it shows up but I Do Not attach to them. After I’m done I do something that feels good, that brings me joy!

I choose to look at everything as adventures our souls came here to experience and we are meant to have them for our growth and evolution of humanity.

The real good news, which you’re probably already aware of, is that humanity is awakening and remembering who we really are.

Discovering our innate power within, that we have all our answers and learning that just by existing we offer so much to the world is how we remember who we are.

We Are The Ones We Have Been Waiting For!

If you’re resonating with this and want to discover how it applies to your life circumstances please reach out to me and let’s talk. I am a spiritual life coach specializing in forgiveness and empowerment. I guide you to discover your real self which is love.

My mission is to help others who are ready to open their hearts and heal so they can be who they truly are underneath all the programmed fear and scarcity which is currently dismantling.

Disclaimer: I am not a mental health professional so if you are in distress please reach out to your local professional for help.

I simply offer an alternative perspective on life, one that has helped so many find freedom from their pain and heal themselves so they can live their life in harmony.

(I chose this picture because it is unedited ME. Showing up as me for me and showing YOU that it’s safe to become who you really are on the inside.)

Namaste.

Besides impacting the lives of others to ‘be real and love life’ the most powerful thing about the work I get to do is the reflections of the teachings that come back to me. I always receive some type of wisdom, healing or blessing from the experience, whether it’s a private, group session or a speaking event.

Whatever the message is that I’ve conveyed I am somehow reminded of how it applies to me as well and it guides me towards the next stage of my growth.

Being aware of the subtle messages that are being sent to guide us forward is very empowering.

Last weekend at the Soul Full Day conference, I guided a group of 70 women through a visualization meditation to identify and let go of a fear story holding them back from what they truly wanted for their life, freedom to live their love story.

It was remarkable to witness them releasing the fear and claiming their love stories, seeing and feeling themselves living in the higher potential of their dreams.

This week I’ve been deeply reminded of the fear story that I’ve been carrying, ‘not being well enough to live a fulfilling life because my digestive health is failing’.

This is the same story my grandmother carried, and she died in fear with this story in her which was unconsciously passed on to me, and I accepted it.

For 8 years now I’ve been having various challenges with my digestive health. I’ve seen many different professionals and tried many different remedies and lifestyle changes. Some have worked and some haven’t. Over time things seemed to have mostly settled, then just a month ago the issues flared up again in a bigger way.

This brought up the old fear story for me as I prepare for a trip of a lifetime. I’m going to Egypt on a sacred pilgrimage to the visit the lands and ancient sites with 13 other women. This will be my first trip overseas and I’ve always been fascinated with Egyptian history, never thinking I would get the opportunity to visit until it showed up to me. I was very drawn to go, and decided I was going, even though it felt way outside my ability to be able to take such a trip.

Worries and a wide range of emotions have been coming up for me since these flare ups have been happening. My mind races and makes up stories based in old fears.

What if I am not well enough to fully experience this trip? What if I am stuck in my room and miss the tours, or what if I am not able to digest the food there? All that disappointment and money spent if I might not be able to full experience it.

These stories are very similar to what my grandmother used to tell herself. She was afraid to go far from home, let alone on a plane to another country. Everything centred around her digestive limitations and she was petrified of having an ‘accident’ while out in public. These fear stories debilitated her and she became a hermit and was very lonely in her later years.

I will never forget seeing her in the final days of her life living in fear. I visited her almost every day and seeing her like that was very sad because there wasn’t much I could do other than comfort and reassure her that she would be ok.

What it did do was motivate me to face my own fears and not go down the same path as she did. In this regard, she was a great teacher to me and not long after she transitioned I was divinely guided to take the Radical Forgiveness Master Coach 10 day training in Atlanta.

It was a huge step for me, and again way outside my comfort zone, but in the end it was one of the best things I could have done for myself because it set me on the trajectory of facing my fears, and the journey of living my love story.

I am eternally grateful to be on this path of self-forgiveness and self-acceptance just as I am, and in time I have learned to love myself. I’m still on this healing journey however this year I’ve had some major shifts in this area of my life and feel truly worthy and deserving of this love for myself because I have freedom from the fears.

This is where the synchronicity comes in again.

It just so happens that this Friday, the day I fly to Egypt, is the 9 year anniversary of my grandmother’s passing, and it’s a full moon! You just can’t make these things up. I didn’t realize the mysterious alignment of these dates until just a few weeks ago.

In numerology the number 9 represents endings and completions and I have a strong intuitive feeling that this trip is going to be transformational for me as a new beginning.

The other day when I was dancing my grandmother came to my mind, she was dancing with me, and I know she is leaving me these breadcrumb signs to follow to complete this stage of my journey. I made a promise to her that I was going to end the cycle of fear she carried and commit myself to healing into wholeness.

I have no doubt that this is all happening for me, rather than to me. And unlike my grandmother, I will face my fears and take this trip and I will trust in the divine unfoldment of it all.

I am reminded that everything is always working out for me, even if it doesn’t seem that way and she is cheering me on all along the way.

These are the same phrases I spoke to the women when I was on stage just a few days ago and they echo loudly in my mind as the beautiful blessings of having the freedom to live my love story.

If you would like to experience the guided visualization for yourself listen to the audio recording so you too can be free from your fear story and claim your love story.

In my next blog I will share about my travel adventures so stay tuned, and if you would like to be notified when I share it you can join my email Love Letter list at the bottom of this page.

Until next time… thank you for being here.

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