Let’s face it, being human can be tough for many people, the challenges, the pain and the suffering. We find ways to cope and numb the pain.
When we begin to be aware of ourselves and the external world it gets even more confusing.
Who are we?
Why is there so much pain in the world?
How can we find peace, happiness and joy when we are surrounded by war, fear and lack?
These were just some of the questions I had before I connected with my inner self. It all seemed so unfair to me back then and I denied my spirituality.
When I was introduced to Radical Forgiveness all of that changed. I finally had answers to my unanswered questions I had all my life!
It wasn’t about being a perfect, non-sinner. As spiritual beings having a human experience we are supposed to have these painful experiences. We actually signed up for them to learn, grow, balance karmic energies or fulfill our mission in this lifetime.
If you don’t buy this concept that’s ok. You don’t have to believe it and truthfully I didn’t believe it myself at first. As humans we need proof with our five senses and to think we would actually choose to experience such painful things is kind of an outrageous notion.
It’s a spiritual concept and our reality is in the 3D World of Humanity.
We also didn’t realize as souls how difficult it would be because we only knew what love, oneness and abundance was.
To fully experience these things we had to have what we call ‘spiritual amnesia’ so we would truly understand.
To really know what oneness, love and abundance is you need to know what separation, fear and lack is and Earth is the perfect place to do it!
This was a way easier concept that I could grasp and it answered all of my questions.
For the skeptics, no, we don’t know it’s true for sure, but it’s a way better story than what I had which was confusing and misunderstanding.
Another idea I love about the Radical Forgiveness concept is that we get to be human!
We are still going to feel pain, make mistakes and struggle but now that I know this is part of the human experience it’s not so painful because it has purpose.
I can accept that I’m going to have bad days, and I am ok with being with it because I know there’s something bigger going on and it will reveal itself to me as the situation evolves.
I will admit I had trouble living in both worlds at first, as Colin Tipping explains in the book Radical Forgiveness it’s like looking at the world through two different lenses at the same time. It takes time to focus.
95% of the time we will look at things through the World of Humanity and the other 5% we can see it in terms of the World of Spirit.
I was getting caught up in the latter because I was just grasping the concepts and was looking at it that way too often. I have a much better balance now and can look at situations through both lenses easily.
Our soul is what connects us to both worlds and depending on how high we are vibrating energetically is what world we are more rooted in. As we become more connected to our spirituality this percentage will change to be closer to even.
Remember we are here in the World of Humanity as a human being and having a closer connection to the World of Spirit is a great benefit to us.
We have the Radical forgiveness ‘spiritual technology’ available so we don’t have to live as a victim for too long. I find it very empowering that I can bring myself back to peace when I use the tools.
I was also reminded that whatever is going on in my life is happening FOR me not TO me. As I began to become more aware and practice living in two worlds I noticed that life is easier, I worried much less and I have way less judgement of others and myself. It’s teaching me every day.
Radical Forgiveness helped me to have more acceptance of others and myself. It gave me a different way to look at life and still be able to be human.
Besides impacting the lives of others to ‘be real and love life’ the most powerful thing about the work I get to do is the reflections of the teachings that come back to me. I always receive some type of wisdom, healing or blessing from the experience, whether it’s a private, group session or a speaking event.
Whatever the message is that I’ve conveyed I am somehow reminded of how it applies to me as well and it guides me towards the next stage of my growth.
Being aware of the subtle messages that are being sent to guide us forward is very empowering.
Last weekend at the Soul Full Day conference, I guided a group of 70 women through a visualization meditation to identify and let go of a fear story holding them back from what they truly wanted for their life, freedom to live their love story.
It was remarkable to witness them releasing the fear and claiming their love stories, seeing and feeling themselves living in the higher potential of their dreams.
This week I’ve been deeply reminded of the fear story that I’ve been carrying, ‘not being well enough to live a fulfilling life because my digestive health is failing’.
This is the same story my grandmother carried, and she died in fear with this story in her which was unconsciously passed on to me, and I accepted it.
For 8 years now I’ve been having various challenges with my digestive health. I’ve seen many different professionals and tried many different remedies and lifestyle changes. Some have worked and some haven’t. Over time things seemed to have mostly settled, then just a month ago the issues flared up again in a bigger way.
This brought up the old fear story for me as I prepare for a trip of a lifetime. I’m going to Egypt on a sacred pilgrimage to the visit the lands and ancient sites with 13 other women. This will be my first trip overseas and I’ve always been fascinated with Egyptian history, never thinking I would get the opportunity to visit until it showed up to me. I was very drawn to go, and decided I was going, even though it felt way outside my ability to be able to take such a trip.
Worries and a wide range of emotions have been coming up for me since these flare ups have been happening. My mind races and makes up stories based in old fears.
What if I am not well enough to fully experience this trip? What if I am stuck in my room and miss the tours, or what if I am not able to digest the food there? All that disappointment and money spent if I might not be able to full experience it.
These stories are very similar to what my grandmother used to tell herself. She was afraid to go far from home, let alone on a plane to another country. Everything centred around her digestive limitations and she was petrified of having an ‘accident’ while out in public. These fear stories debilitated her and she became a hermit and was very lonely in her later years.
I will never forget seeing her in the final days of her life living in fear. I visited her almost every day and seeing her like that was very sad because there wasn’t much I could do other than comfort and reassure her that she would be ok.
What it did do was motivate me to face my own fears and not go down the same path as she did. In this regard, she was a great teacher to me and not long after she transitioned I was divinely guided to take the Radical Forgiveness Master Coach 10 day training in Atlanta.
It was a huge step for me, and again way outside my comfort zone, but in the end it was one of the best things I could have done for myself because it set me on the trajectory of facing my fears, and the journey of living my love story.
I am eternally grateful to be on this path of self-forgiveness and self-acceptance just as I am, and in time I have learned to love myself. I’m still on this healing journey however this year I’ve had some major shifts in this area of my life and feel truly worthy and deserving of this love for myself because I have freedom from the fears.
This is where the synchronicity comes in again.
It just so happens that this Friday, the day I fly to Egypt, is the 9 year anniversary of my grandmother’s passing, and it’s a full moon! You just can’t make these things up. I didn’t realize the mysterious alignment of these dates until just a few weeks ago.
In numerology the number 9 represents endings and completions and I have a strong intuitive feeling that this trip is going to be transformational for me as a new beginning.
The other day when I was dancing my grandmother came to my mind, she was dancing with me, and I know she is leaving me these breadcrumb signs to follow to complete this stage of my journey. I made a promise to her that I was going to end the cycle of fear she carried and commit myself to healing into wholeness.
I have no doubt that this is all happening for me, rather than to me. And unlike my grandmother, I will face my fears and take this trip and I will trust in the divine unfoldment of it all.
I am reminded that everything is always working out for me, even if it doesn’t seem that way and she is cheering me on all along the way.
These are the same phrases I spoke to the women when I was on stage just a few days ago and they echo loudly in my mind as the beautiful blessings of having the freedom to live my love story.
If you would like to experience the guided visualization for yourself listen to the audio recording so you too can be free from your fear story and claim your love story.
In my next blog I will share about my travel adventures so stay tuned, and if you would like to be notified when I share it you can join my email Love Letter list at the bottom of this page.
Until next time… thank you for being here.
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